SIGNS OF DEPRESSION
Persistent sadness, anxiety or empty mood.
I know happiness lies within my soul but I can't deny the fact that i feel anxious most of the time. Sad in the sense that things aren't going exactly the way I want them to be.
Sleeping too much or too little.
My class schedule is from 8am down to 9pm. No joke. I don't go home for lunch so I don't have enough time to have siesta. I sleep at around 1am and unfortunately, I always find myself waking up at 3am having a hard time to go back to bed again. It irritates me. I feel hopeless.
Waking up in the middle of the night unable to sleep again.
Like what I said earlier, I wake up around 3am. I have a hard time going back to sleep. If ever I feel the need to go back to sleep again, it would be useless - it's 7am (and my class starts at 8am).
Marked reduction of weight or weight-gain like eating too little or too much.
My weight hasn't been stable for 2 years now. I lost 40lbs. last summer though and it was really abrupt. Now I am starting to gain everything back again. When I'm sad, I tend to eat a lot. Often times, I eat nothing. (Or is it the effects of quiting smoke?!)
Loss of pleasure and interest in activities once enjoyed.
I love multi-tasking so much. But things have changed since what happened to me since June. I don't know. I love playing the piano but my interest slowly faded away. I have been trying to tell myself that it's just one bad day. But as the day comes to a close, things didn't fall into place. My piano recital even sucked. God!
Restlessness and irritability.
I am one patient person. That was years ago. Or am I having early andropoause?
Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment.
Coughing is a sudden and often repetitively occurring defence reflex which helps to clear the large breathing passages from excess secretions, irritants, foreign particles and microbes. Or say, sneezing. Rhinorrhea (runny nose)? It last for a month. Been drinking all sorts of medicines but to no avail. *sigh*
Difficulty concentrating, remembering or making decisions.
I can concentrate. I lot. But I have one serious problem, I begin to forget things easily. I even forgot that I'm having my birthday this October not until my bestfriend told me. Pathetic! Decision-making? I can't even decide what and where to eat. Inutil!
Fatigue and loss of energy like no energy to get out of bed.
See?! I can't even answer this stupid thing.
Feeling guilty, hopeless or worthless.
Remember number two?! I always find myself waking up at 3am having a hard time to go back to bed again. It irritates me. I feel hopeless. What do you think?
Thoughts of suicide or death.
Death has always been my fascination. I am a suicidal kid at 8. Nah. I don't want to talk about it nor think about it.